Have you ever had THOSE moments where you know something with certainty and also know, with equal certainty, that it will never manifest into an action? I am talking about knowing something to be absolutely true and a fact and never being able to validate that fact? Maybe that’s just belief. I don’t think so, though.
Sex can be like that. Lust. Love. Total trust. You know something and you can’t act on it. It’s like knowing that someone would be a lot of fun and really good in bed… and knowing with equal certainty that you will never be able to find out. Bummer, isn’t it?
Not that I would mix God and sex (well, maybe I could in a piece of fiction somewhere, eh?) but all the “non” physical things can be that way, too. Knowing the existence of telepathy. Having total certainty about the sex of a baby before its born, without the ultrasound – that’s what I’m talking about.
I have no idea why I’m rambling on about this except to note that it struck me today that we have so many thoughts in our head, so many ideas and fact, and sometimes, we can never share them. We must remain totally apart and separate from the idea / the fact and the person. This is more of the sex belief than anything else but y’all get my drift… It seems sad that you can’t just say something to someone and not have it get all weird.
Especially in the place you work. It is sad that we can’t just take things as human beings and not as primal creatures.
Forgive my meanderings. I’m very, very tired and the word is stumbling. I’ll do better when the brain has slept. I promise. More writing to come.
Hugs, kisses, and the occasional bed thought about you, eh?